Thursday, January 29, 2009


This is what a mean by the connections I talked about in my last blog. It happened today.

Molly called me just like she said she would. Yeah! She told me that she talked to the doctor who was working the neonatal unit, and he's excited about talking to me and Dave, and he has a lot to share with us. He has experience with Trisomy 18 babies, too. He gave her his office phone number. I am supposed to call and leave a message so either he or someone in his office (not sure which) can call us and set up an appointment (just to talk = free!) in the near future.

Here's the connection: While Molly was talking to him, he got up and went to his file cabinet. Now, apparently, this doctor is pretty disorganized and ADHD (sounds like my husband, which is a quality I love in him). This is important to know because he goes to his file cabinet (which is a wreck itself) and pulls straight out of it a funeral announcement of some kind from 1992 (or was it 1994?) from a baby who died in utero. He knew that the parents of this baby healed from their loss by talking to others. He called them and asked for permission to give us their phone number. Molly gave me that number, too. She once again assured me that Lily would be loved and cherished.

Sure there's a people connection here, but don't miss the connection regarding the file cabinet. I have seen connections such as this throughout my life, and I attribute it to the great Mystery--God. I am not expecting an extreme change for the better in Lily's condition, but these connections confirm that this is exactly, exactly, where I am supposed to be in this stage of my life. Who knows? Maybe it's just the beginning of a path I am supposed to be taking but have been either too dumb or too lazy to pursue it.

My heart swells and I shudder over the power this Mystery has had over my life. Rani, Autumn, Dave, and Gabriel have all been a part of it. And now Lily is. I know it is not going to be an easy road. Honestly, has it ever been? But I once again find comfort knowing without a doubt that I'm headed in the right direction.


  1. *what I mean, not what a mean. (:

  2. Your posts are inspiring. I am so glad you are feeling hope again and are finding the beautiful synchronicities God places in our path to support us in a walk such as this. Thank you for sharing with all of us!