Lily

I have had the opportunity to hold the world in my arms four times--August 29, October 19, September 24, and April 30. It never ceases to amaze me that the more I hold, the less time I seem to have, but despite the time that diminishes, my love grows. How is it that the concept of division seems to multiply when we talk about love?

There has been so little time to process much of anything. Yesterday, I didn't have much of a minute to myself; I was so bombarded with hospital staff and visitors and phone calls. I appreciated them all, but it was exhausting, and this introvert needed her me-time.

There are so many things to talk about and so little time. Time. I can't tell you how many times I've looked at the clock and been in awe because each time I look is time that has past--time that God has given me with Lily. And every time I look at that clock, I say a quick prayer for what I've been given. It is 9:35, and I've had 58 hours with her! Fifty-eight hours!

My biggest hope was to just be able to look into her eyes, to interact with her for a few hours, to show her our love. I have been blessed beyond measure with that time with her! My second hope was to not leave the hospital with empty arms. Today at 11:50 am, Lily breathed her first breath of fresh, southern air. I feel as if I got more than I bargained for! And now, at 9:38 pm, I've stopped my thoughts. Instead of looking to the future, I'm happily stuck in the here and now, glancing back at the past three days with a grateful heart.

The world may consider Lily imperfect, but she is perfect for me. She's tiny. She's peaceful. When she's awake, she's alert and has the biggest eyes. She's got a little squeak of a cry, when she cries. She's got the biggest feet I've ever seen on a baby. I think she planned on going skiing as soon as she was born! :) She has a cry that says, "Don't bother me!" and one that says, "I'm hungry!" and one that says, "I'm very irritated!" I'm in awe!

I've got to go take care of some mommy business, but I hope to add a few new pictures later tonight.