Hateful Words

Dave says I shouldn't give this my energy, but that's easier said than done.  It has been eating away at me all day, and it's now time for a release.  Luckily, writing is a good way to release both the good and the bad energy that stirs within.


I subscribe to Google Alerts for Trisomy 18.  It's an easy way to get news and blogs on Trisomy 18 without having to do a search myself.  It's not always perfect, but I have found new Trisomy 18 families and some interesting information through the alerts.


Today's alert had this title:  "Life with a Trisomy 18 Tard (at the tax payers' expense). 


I know what "tard" means.  So I was curious as to what this article had to say.  I knew it wouldn't be nice, and I should have just stayed away, but at times, it's good to know what the opposing side is saying.


Here are some of the things the person (screen name:  KidlessKim) who wrote this article is saying about a child with Trisomy 18:

• tard

• defective loaf 

• his family is "living in a fantasy world of what they WANT to see" (in response to the child's mother saying that he is "happy, interactive, and loves people")

• tard loaf

Thinking about this all day, there were so many horrible things I wanted to say about this person.  I created this character type in my mind to make me feel better.  That this was indeed a "bitter, shallow person" as a commenter called her.  


Then I began to pity this person.  Obviously, for such hateful words to come out of a person's mouth like that, there must be some underlying problem.  Cowardice seems to fit.  It annoys me that this person is hiding behind her screen name and her computer screen.

So I have an invitation for her--"Kidlesskim."  I invite her to Charleston, to my house.  I invite her to come to my house, to sit in front of my family, and to look Lily in the eyes and say those horrible words to her.  And I'll record it all, and I'll post it on YouTube and Facebook and show the world what a horrible person she really is.  That's what I want to do, anyway.

And here's the thing.  Here's what she'll get.  Dave, Rani, Autumn, Gabriel, and I (Soleil is too young to understand) will be hurt by her biting words, but Lily?  Lily will look at her, maybe smile, maybe coo.  She'll just go on like any other day, loving her life and not worrying about Kidlesskim and her biting remarks.

So through all of this, with her "profoundly mentally retarded" state, Lily will come out the better person.  Better than Kidlesskim.  Better than me.  Better than the majority of us.  She's the one who time and time again teaches me such lessons about life.   If only I could take the negative junk and go on like any other day, loving life and not worrying about others and their biting remarks.  Knowing what Lily's response would be, for some reason, makes me feel better.